I know I have been quiet since Sunday. I hardly know what to say. I am in shock. I was not prepared for this. Tanner was not prepared for this. No one has a clear explanation for what happened these last three weeks that led to him dying. Tanner did not want to die. I never found the peace that he was ready to go. I don’t believe he was. I know this sounds so negative. I wish I could say it all makes sense. It feels like I’m in an alternate reality and I’m just waiting for it to go away.
That said. I believe God loves Tanner and will take care of him. I know Noah was there to welcome Tanner home. Tanner’s body served him for an extra 13 years since the first time we thought he would die. I have to hold onto what we had and try not to think about how unfair it all feels. I’m so grateful for all the time Tanner and I have spent together over his lifetime. I am so sad. My heart physically hurts. My stomach hurts and I feel like throwing up. I am so touched by everyone who has shared posts about tanner. I am grateful for the prayers that I know are sustaining me right now. If you want to say something but don’t have the right words, don’t feel bad. I have no idea what to say either. 💙❤️ 5 mins
I thought I had simply missed it... missed what had precipitated Tanner’s decline. Something must have gone terribly wrong... like, is it possible to reject a liver 13 years later? I hope they are able to figure it out, but it won’t save our Tanner. Two sweet boys in such a short time and under such different circumstances. Yet both so unexpected. Expect this will take awhile just to take in, never mind heal from. The fact that I get to celebrate 3 son’s birthdays in the next 10 days only brings it home all the more. I’m here for you, puddle. 😢💔🙏😘
For me, too, not knowing what happened makes things harder. I feel for Megan.
It is possible for a liver to be rejected after 13 years, although it would be unusual. But the symptoms don't strike me as those I would expect to be associated with liver rejection. Besides, they would surely have looked at that possibility.
Just saw Alan's note on the last thread - that trump threatens to shut down all major legislation in retaliation for the Impeachment hearings beginning. Since every single thing he has done has been a negative I see this as a net positive for the country.
Uh, no. He didn't say anything about executive orders. Aside from the corporate/rich folks tax cut, there has been very little legislation during this presidency.
"President Donald Trump was incredulous Tuesday as he sat in Trump Tower and watched House Speaker Nancy Pelosi announce she was launching a formal impeachment inquiry against him, sources familiar with the moment say. Sitting in the same building where he launched his long shot presidential campaign four years ago, Trump said he couldn't believe it, he later told people. He had felt confident after phoning Pelosi earlier that morning. The drive for impeachment in her caucus had ramped up amid reports he pushed the Ukrainian President to investigate Joe Biden, and Trump was hoping to head off a clash. He figured he could de-escalate tensions by speaking with her directly."
It seems the UK is moving closer to the US model. Not only do they now have an independent Supreme Court, but they are close to having a fixed five-year election cycle: A snap election requires approval of 2/3 of Parliament.
I have for a very long time thought it is very interesting to see how the US and UK governments both evolved from the 18th Century UK government. If one looks closely, each government retains all the offices of the common ancestor; generally speaking, the US retains the powers of the offices while making them elective, while the UK keeps the form of the offices while reducing their power. Two cases in point: President vs. King/Queen and Senator vs. member of the House of Lords. It even extends to relatively minor matters; Blackrod's mace is a rod of ebony; the mace of the House of Representatives bundles together thirteen rods of ebony.
I need some help understanding something. Here is a story taken from the news: ============================ “Speaker Nancy Pelosi and President Trump were discussing gun violence over the telephone Tuesday morning when the president abruptly changed the topic to an intelligence community whistle-blower complaint that had Democrats talking about impeachment,” the New York Times reports.
“Ms. Pelosi stopped him short.”
Said Pelosi: “Mr. President, you have come into my wheelhouse.” ======================= The story continues with an explanation that seems to be a non sequitur: ====================== “The remark was a reference to Ms. Pelosi’s quarter-century of experience with intelligence matters in Congress, an aspect of her biography that played a central role in her decision on Tuesday to open a formal impeachment inquiry into Mr. Trump.” ================================================
The more I think about the possible meaning of the statement, the more puzzled I become. Speaker Pelosi is not much older than I am, but she grew up in Baltimore and environs, which is unfamiliar (dare I say foreign?) to me. It is fair to assume that we are both well educated and well read, so that shouldn't be a factor. Obviously the expression is nautical in origin, evidently it also had some use in railways, and allegedly it had some use in baseball (per wikipedia]. But the relevance of any of those things to whatever Mr. Trump must do (according to Ms Pelosi) is clear as mud to me. I wonder if this is some sort of regional colloquialism. Can anyone here translate "...you have come into my wheelhouse” into standard English for the benefit of an old westerner?
Oops--I misread--I though she said "you have to come into my wheelhouse" rather than "you have come into my wheelhouse." That makes more sense, although it is still somewhat unclear.
I happen to be reading (for a book discussion) an SF novel involving a naval ship. The point is made that the bridge (wheelhouse) is absolutely the captain's territory and no one enters without permission. Pelosi is telling Trump that impeachment is her business and he has nothing to say about it.
Thanks for the clarification; I can buy that, definitely. Getting rid od that imagined "to" helps as well. Freudian slip, that. Like accidentally typing "Hilary Clingon." I haven't done that for some time, though. Which recalls a thought I had about the alleged hesitancy of many women to vote for a woman for President this year because of HRC losing in 2016. There is (from my point of view, anyway) a major difference between HRC and all the female candidates this year. HRC gained her political prominence because of whom she married; all the current crop gained their political positions by their own efforts. Well, the ones who are politicians, anyway.
Tanner, liver cancer at two. Leukemia at 8, bone marrow transplant, Graft-versus-host disease (GVHD), pumped full of prednisone, regular four or five times a year hospital stays, some of them ICU. I really think the miracle was that he lasted this long. The consequences of "curing" cancer are pretty steep. Chemo and radiation are not much better for the body than they are for the cancer. We take it because it's all we have.
The immediate cause of Edwin's death was a heart that could take no more. The actual cause was the radiation treatment for Colorectal cancer a decade earlier. In between was sepsis.
What Bill said. As for chemoradiation, I can testify it sure isn't any fun. But less brutal cures for cancer are in the early stages of clinical trials, with more in the pipeline.
He has always gotten away with whatever he wanted to do. Now he has a real adult standing up to him and not backing down. Expect some serious tantrums. This could end very badly.
I hope there are enough adults in the room to keep us from mortal danger.
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I know I have been quiet since Sunday. I hardly know what to say. I am in shock. I was not prepared for this. Tanner was not prepared for this. No one has a clear explanation for what happened these last three weeks that led to him dying. Tanner did not want to die. I never found the peace that he was ready to go. I don’t believe he was. I know this sounds so negative. I wish I could say it all makes sense.
It feels like I’m in an alternate reality and I’m just waiting for it to go away.
That said. I believe God loves Tanner and will take care of him. I know Noah was there to welcome Tanner home. Tanner’s body served him for an extra 13 years since the first time we thought he would die. I have to hold onto what we had and try not to think about how unfair it all feels. I’m so grateful for all the time Tanner and I have spent together over his lifetime.
I am so sad. My heart physically hurts. My stomach hurts and I feel like throwing up.
I am so touched by everyone who has shared posts about tanner. I am grateful for the prayers that I know are sustaining me right now.
If you want to say something but don’t have the right words, don’t feel bad. I have no idea what to say either. 💙❤️
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I thought I had simply missed it... missed what had precipitated Tanner’s decline. Something must have gone terribly wrong... like, is it possible to reject a liver 13 years later? I hope they are able to figure it out, but it won’t save our Tanner.
DeleteTwo sweet boys in such a short time and under such different circumstances. Yet both so unexpected. Expect this will take awhile just to take in, never mind heal from.
The fact that I get to celebrate 3 son’s birthdays in the next 10 days only brings it home all the more.
I’m here for you, puddle. 😢💔🙏😘
There really is nothing to say except a most inadequate I'm so sorry! ♥
DeleteFor me, too, not knowing what happened makes things harder. I feel for Megan.
DeleteIt is possible for a liver to be rejected after 13 years, although it would be unusual. But the symptoms don't strike me as those I would expect to be associated with liver rejection. Besides, they would surely have looked at that possibility.
I know two things to be true. Neither Noah nor Tanner will ever again be in pain or fear.
ReplyDeleteJust saw Alan's note on the last thread - that trump threatens to shut down all major legislation in retaliation for the Impeachment hearings beginning. Since every single thing he has done has been a negative I see this as a net positive for the country.
ReplyDeleteYeah. As far as I'm concerned, it would be a very good thing if, as Alan says, he took his ball and went home. Maybe Uncle Vladimir will take him in.
DeleteUh, no. He didn't say anything about executive orders. Aside from the corporate/rich folks tax cut, there has been very little legislation during this presidency.
Deletehttps://www.cnn.com/2019/09/25/politics/donald-trump-incredulous-nancy-pelosi-impeachment/index.html
ReplyDelete"President Donald Trump was incredulous Tuesday as he sat in Trump Tower and watched House Speaker Nancy Pelosi announce she was launching a formal impeachment inquiry against him, sources familiar with the moment say. Sitting in the same building where he launched his long shot presidential campaign four years ago, Trump said he couldn't believe it, he later told people.
He had felt confident after phoning Pelosi earlier that morning. The drive for impeachment in her caucus had ramped up amid reports he pushed the Ukrainian President to investigate Joe Biden, and Trump was hoping to head off a clash. He figured he could de-escalate tensions by speaking with her directly."
Alan, I was confused by references to the British Supreme Court, but never got around to looking into it. Thanks for doing so and posting the results.
ReplyDeleteI know. That learning thing is insidious, isn't it? *grin*
It seems the UK is moving closer to the US model. Not only do they now have an independent Supreme Court, but they are close to having a fixed five-year election cycle: A snap election requires approval of 2/3 of Parliament.
DeleteI have for a very long time thought it is very interesting to see how the US and UK governments both evolved from the 18th Century UK government. If one looks closely, each government retains all the offices of the common ancestor; generally speaking, the US retains the powers of the offices while making them elective, while the UK keeps the form of the offices while reducing their power. Two cases in point: President vs. King/Queen and Senator vs. member of the House of Lords. It even extends to relatively minor matters; Blackrod's mace is a rod of ebony; the mace of the House of Representatives bundles together thirteen rods of ebony.
DeleteI need some help understanding something. Here is a story taken from the news:
ReplyDelete============================
“Speaker Nancy Pelosi and President Trump were discussing gun violence over the telephone Tuesday morning when the president abruptly changed the topic to an intelligence community whistle-blower complaint that had Democrats talking about impeachment,” the New York Times reports.
“Ms. Pelosi stopped him short.”
Said Pelosi: “Mr. President, you have come into my wheelhouse.”
=======================
The story continues with an explanation that seems to be a non sequitur:
======================
“The remark was a reference to Ms. Pelosi’s quarter-century of experience with intelligence matters in Congress, an aspect of her biography that played a central role in her decision on Tuesday to open a formal impeachment inquiry into Mr. Trump.”
================================================
The more I think about the possible meaning of the statement, the more puzzled I become. Speaker Pelosi is not much older than I am, but she grew up in Baltimore and environs, which is unfamiliar (dare I say foreign?) to me. It is fair to assume that we are both well educated and well read, so that shouldn't be a factor. Obviously the expression is nautical in origin, evidently it also had some use in railways, and allegedly it had some use in baseball (per wikipedia]. But the relevance of any of those things to whatever Mr. Trump must do (according to Ms Pelosi) is clear as mud to me. I wonder if this is some sort of regional colloquialism. Can anyone here translate "...you have come into my wheelhouse” into standard English for the benefit of an old westerner?
Oops--I misread--I though she said "you have to come into my wheelhouse" rather than "you have come into my wheelhouse." That makes more sense, although it is still somewhat unclear.
DeleteI happen to be reading (for a book discussion) an SF novel involving a naval ship. The point is made that the bridge (wheelhouse) is absolutely the captain's territory and no one enters without permission. Pelosi is telling Trump that impeachment is her business and he has nothing to say about it.
DeleteBill is right. Loosely translated, the Speaker was saying, "Stay off my turf."
DeleteThanks for the clarification; I can buy that, definitely. Getting rid od that imagined "to" helps as well. Freudian slip, that. Like accidentally typing "Hilary Clingon." I haven't done that for some time, though. Which recalls a thought I had about the alleged hesitancy of many women to vote for a woman for President this year because of HRC losing in 2016. There is (from my point of view, anyway) a major difference between HRC and all the female candidates this year. HRC gained her political prominence because of whom she married; all the current crop gained their political positions by their own efforts. Well, the ones who are politicians, anyway.
DeleteTanner, liver cancer at two. Leukemia at 8, bone marrow transplant, Graft-versus-host disease (GVHD), pumped full of prednisone, regular four or five times a year hospital stays, some of them ICU. I really think the miracle was that he lasted this long. The consequences of "curing" cancer are pretty steep. Chemo and radiation are not much better for the body than they are for the cancer. We take it because it's all we have.
ReplyDeleteThe immediate cause of Edwin's death was a heart that could take no more. The actual cause was the radiation treatment for Colorectal cancer a decade earlier. In between was sepsis.
Thanks for the info. If the graft-versus-host disease was no longer responding to steroids, I think that would account for what we saw.
DeleteWhat Bill said. As for chemoradiation, I can testify it sure isn't any fun. But less brutal cures for cancer are in the early stages of clinical trials, with more in the pipeline.
DeleteThank you...all. I understand now, as I recall something about the steroids not working.
DeleteTanner was a miracle.
How long is a life, anyway?
Oh, Lordy—this Politico.com headline should win a prize: From DC swamp, Trump dives into Ukrainian cesspit [Click]
ReplyDeleteUkraine Scheme Began as Effort to Pardon Manafort [Click]
Trump’s Push For Ukraine To Probe CrowdStrike Is Rooted In Wild Conspiracy Theories [Click]
Congress Has Trump Whistleblower Complaint. Some Lawmakers Want You To See It, Too. [Click] Among other ways, they could do it the way Mike Gravel released the Pentagon Papers.
I’m beginning to get the impression that this Ukraine-Trump stuff could really amount to something…
I felt that yesterday, Alan. Slept very well indeed, for the first time in a couple of years.
ReplyDeleteI remember thinking for a long time that that third-rate burglary at The Watergate wasn't any big deal.
DeleteHmmm, come to think of it, I slept pretty well last night too.
DeleteNow I want to hear how Susan is sleeping!
Trump Is Panicking [Click] “The president has lost control of the news cycle, and doesn’t know what to do next.”
ReplyDeleteWhat Pelosi’s Pivot on Impeachment Really Means [Click] “Is this a defining moment in the Trump presidency, or merely some creative packaging?”
The whistle-blowers report has been declassified and may be released Thursday morning!
ReplyDeleteToday is Youngest's birthday. It's like he already blew out his candle and got his wish! 🎂
DT tonight said he doesn't see Nancy Pelosi as the Speaker anymore.
ReplyDeleteHe's really losing it.
Does he see her as a reawakened ancient dragon? Like the one that killed Beowulf? Just wondering.
DeleteI don't think he's thinking clearly at all now.
DeleteHe has always gotten away with whatever he wanted to do.
Now he has a real adult standing up to him and not backing down.
Expect some serious tantrums. This could end very badly.
I hope there are enough adults in the room to keep us from mortal danger.
What DT said and response to it...
Deletehttps://www.cnn.com/videos/politics/2019/09/25/trump-pelosi-house-speaker-statement-baldwin-reaction-nr-vpx.cnn/video/playlists/this-week-in-politics/